I WANT TO GO HOME! I want to sleep! and I want to be HAPPY!
B.S. stuff that I decided to mention for no nonsense reason!!!!!!! haha, hehe!?!
Okay, so I’m sitting in the library and I am wondering… WHO ARE MY TRUE FRIENDS? People kind of make me mad. I left work for 3 days, and I go back to a rumor of me being some kind of huge druggie. What’s that all about? I’m not really mad about it, but it can get me suspended until proven innocent, which takes about a week and a half. Hmmm, life sucks at times. Anyway, I read this book, it’s called America. The book was crazy! It was DISTURBING! IT WAS GREAT!?! I liked it a lot. I read the WHOLE book yesterday because I liked the content. YES, I READ A BOOK! Anyway… I like Scooby Doo. JUST KIDDING, that was for Corey, (Amber’s 3 year old brother.) That would definitely qualify under “HAD TO BE THERE’S!”. So my plans for this weekend are as followed… Try to get off work so I can go craft fair shopping… WANNA DO THAT WITH ME CARRIE? That is my fave thing about the fall! YAY, to the crafts!!!!!!!!!! I always get so excited. But then I will prolly not be able to go since no body will ever work for me… Then I will prolly hang with Dillion at 11:30p-3:00a. I dunno if Ash is coming, but I don’t really have the want to hang with her, it’s time for someone new… ALTHOUGH I STILL LOVE ASHLEY TO DEATH, which she comes home for good in less than 3 months… YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!?!?????? Then again, I dunno… I just feel we have gotten tired of eachother for a lil while. We’re always mad at eachother for stupid things a lot lately. I DON’T REALLY KNOW WHY! Anyone got a suggestion on a good read? I wanna find a good book… ANYONE? Well, I’m gonna bounce out, I gotta write an email to CSCC administator!! TOOtaLOOs!
Hmmm, I went to a wedding and then to a party where people were crazily different. My cousins make me mad. I feel like i'm not even part of the family anymore. AND then Ashley was supposed to go with me... BUT OF COURSE! NO, she just ignored me until it was too late, and then she didn't go. SOUND'S AWFULLY FARMILIAR. So then I went to work where I was waiting for Jamie, and now we are going to a movie on Thursday again. NO scary movie this time!
Anyway... I think I am losing all my scholl friends. Only a few of them I really care about. It sounds familiar also. All my friends have their own lives already, I didn't think this would happen until college. BUT, it's getting me prepared, and I guess I am okay with it. I start Columbus State in a lil less than 3 months. Unless Ash doesn't go then I will be going in August. Well, I gotta pee. and then go onto my other online journal so I can DEFINATELY write personally. SINCE PEOPLE DON'T CARE ON HERE TO KNOW MY BUSINESS.
Bwah... a ga ga ga ga ga! I like Dillion a lot, BUT for some retarded reason, I have SO many more feeling about David. WHY? Grrrh, I h8 him and yet I love him. WHY does my life have to be so retarded. I FINALLY find a guy that will treat me right, (I should know since me and him have been F/L-F! and I can't get over people I HATE. I hate a lot of people, but David is one that I JUST can't hate always. Grrh. SOmetimes I just wanna punch myself. Dillion and I have been friends since 1st grade and I think that the years we have known eachother are really affecting me. I WANNA be his friend, but I ALSO want more than that too. Grrrht! He just texted me a few minutes ago, asking me to go out with him to a movie as A DATE! That's what we always did when we were friends. I think the reason I am so close to him is cuz he and I have had the same kind of past. FOr who ever is reading this... PLEASE HELP! Grrht. People don't always know how to handle me, and my problems. Me and him have been together through DEFINATELY thick and thin. WHat if we screw things up with eachother and it costs our friendship? Then who can I run to, to cry on their shoulder... WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE SO TOUGH? I think I'm gonna go... and it's not like anything can happen that hasn't happend yet. We LITERALLY know EVERYTHING about eachother, including what happened 2 summers ago with Winston!!! AND... he taught me everyuthing I would ever need to know items dealing with relationships! and NOTHING should be TOO new unless we go too far, WHICH I AM DEFINATELY DOUBTING. Grrrht, look at me, I am ranting on a computer about my problems. You see, thats a mere sign that I don't trust some of my friends. Well, I guess trust would be the wrong word, I guess the real statement should be... You can tell I don't have any REAL friends who would prolly care anyways?! Well, I'm done, I'm gonna bounce/peace out. TTTSL!
Tonight is the night that things are gonna be gettin' straightend out between me and Winston. Then Dillon may be coming over so we can do some trick-or-treating. If he can't come, I will be having my LL come over. OWW OWW Ashley!! lol. if me ash don't wanna go, we will be staying at my house and passin' out candy. Peeps, YOU HAVE TO SEE MY COSTUME! it's a real gut cracker, or as ARAK puts it, A NUT CRACKER! lol. I love people at my work, sometimes I feel they are my only friends. Dillon's coming over!!!!!!!!! MAYBE! BUT YAYYYYYYYYY!!! I love Dillon. I wanna f him on the spot. Ummm, no. Stupid people writing "stuff" on here. But it's kinda true so I guess I'll keep it?! He he... anyway, I went out to lunch today with Zach... He's got a pimpin' car. He's not that bad looking, but the car?! WHOA BUDDY! let me tell you. NICE! NICE! NICE! but I still like Dillons? no not really, just trying to make him feel better. O ya. yesterday, Dillon came to visit me at work and my friend Sarah was there too, but they weren't together... ANYWAY, she comes up to me and says "omg, there is this really cute guy in here" and points to guess who?! MY BOYFRIEND! ha ha, i have a hottie. he he he! SCORE! Yup, have nuthing better to write about so I thought to maybe start writing some stuff that NOBODY cares about. This is an original from Sesamechicken.mindsay.com
I HAVE DECIDED TO WRITE IN this ONE today also. Woo. Okay, so Ashley is supposedly coming this weekend and is ACTUALLY going to spend the night. I don’t believe it but ok. Hmmmm, we were talking yesterday and she said that she had something to tell me but not until she comes. She WON’T tell me. I saw THE VILLAGE last nite with Danielle and Jamie! AWESOME I must say. Only 2 scary parts and the rest was EXCELLENT! The only thing that really scared me was “the creature”. FREAKY LOOKING! Anyone else seen it? Jamie kept scaring me and I wanted to just like pee my pants. Lol. No, I’m not that big f a pantywaist… lol. I don’t have to babysit today, which is an EXCELLENT thing, cuz I also have to work from 2:30 to 6:30pm and I was only supposed to have 6.5 hours but then I asked for more… SO I NOW HAVE 20.5 hours. W0o0o0o0! Paycheck day. It is so exciting I must say so myself. -~YAWN~-! So, I FINALLY finished shooting my senior pics with my mom, and now ALL I have left to do is print them into wallets. I’m kinda freaked out for graduation this year! Hmmm, I know I can survive, just wanna sht my pants with horridness! Lol. Anyway, I don’t really have too much more to share with people, if I was writing on my private one… I’d be a WHOLE lot more open. Oh ya… If carrie is reading this, I think I am not gonna do the senior shirt thing. I think I will make a different kind of thing cuz, on senior shirts they have the initials of the people who are also part of it… We are ONLY GOING TO HAVE 2! So, why really waste the money?! I dunno, I just don’t have money that U can just go around and spend anymore… COLLEGE AND CAR AND APARTMENT IS COMING… AND reality has FINALLY hit! Well, I guess I will be writing more later since I have nothing better to do during 7th period!
the stuff that I am writing on here does not seem to be working!
MindSay Quick Update /
I am feeling happy? NO! Ashley won't talk to me!!!! grrh!
My weekend was just working... I got my haircut and I look like a boy... but whatever. It looks fine when I style it, but I left my stuff at kroger. I have to wear it in a half ponytail until I can get it. I'm going to ACTUALLY go to the football game this weekend, and YAY! So, I have nothing really better to write... TTYL!
okay carrie... i have work from 4-8:30 tonight. But I might be skipping it to go get my hair cut.... and yah. I for got what I was going to say. I guess I will ttyl.
KEITH URBAN! GOT IT! IGNORE IF NECESSARY!
WHO SINGS...
There's a new wind lowin' like I've never known
I'm breathin' deeper than I've ever done
And it sure feels good to finally feel the way I do
I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you
I'm letttin' go of all my lonely yesterdays
I've forgivin' myself for all the mistakes I've made
Now there's just one thing, the only thing I wanna do
I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you
Chorus:
Yeah I wanna feel the sunshine
Shining down on me and you
When you put your arms around me
You let me know there's nothing in this world
I can't do
I used to run in circles goin' nowhere fast
I'd take one step forward, end up two steps back
I couldn't walk a straight line even if I wanted to
I want to love somebody
Love somebody like you
Oh here we go now
Hey I wanna love you baby
Repeat Chorus
Sometimes it's hard for me to understand
But you're teachin' me to be a better man
I don't want to take this life for granted like
I used to do, no no
I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you
I'm ready to love somebody
Love somebodylike you
I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you
WHO SINGS IT! That is what I want for Christmas! (THE CD!!!!!!!)
Chose this backround for a reason... lets see if u can tell.
oka, I HAVE to think happy thoughts... What makes me happy? Hmmm, friends... My friends... Especially today when I woke up and went to Waffle house with Ashley and Courtney at like 6:00 am. It was so weird to be up that early to be going to school and first stopping by a TASTY restraunt first?! That definately cheered me up some. Everything that Ash does for me though cheers me up some way or another... A lot more to say than some of my other friends since I NEVER see them anymore. I have gotten over that though and I am fine with it, yeah sometimes I wish that me and my friends would talk more like at work... or I wish that things with Carrie Hoffman and I were the way they used to be... EVER SINCE LAST YEAR AT THE END OF MARCHING BAND and the start of her relationship with David, WE HAVE GONE INTO OUR OWN GROUPS and I feel that I guess it's for the better, but then again no... I miss talking to her and laughing at stupid things people did at youth group. I miss Nicki Lawson and how EVERYTHING could be turned into a joke with her... and I MOSTLY miss LAST YEAR! That, I must say, was the best year of my life... but as if you have not seen yet... It does NOT last that long. But, you move on and TRY to accept change. No matter how hard. The only thing I can't really get over to much would definately be... DAVID! I seriously feel like I can't live without him even though we never spend time together, maybe 3 times a month if even that... WE HAD FUN and did cool things and explored. It was kind of more of a "Fun no matter what" relationship, but we shared our love with eachother a lot too... not everything was funny. Just his face... j/k! lol. GOD I MISS THOSE DAYS!
